I'm scared...

I was nervous all yesterday about the Dr. visit this afternoon, but what really scared me this morning was some spotting and a light positive pregnancy test. So light, that I could compare it to some of my first positives from almost a week ago! WTF? So my dumb ass uses a digital with fairly dilute urine about an hour after last peeing. It said not pregnant. I don't know what to think. My FRER yesterday was the most positive that it has ever been...that was around 3pm. Then this morning when i tested with FMU after sleeping for about 5 hours, the FRER is that light? I think I'm going to take some of my tests with me and show the doc and ask her opinion. The spotting has stopped (as far as I know) and i think it only lasted for about an hour or so. It was very mucusy/dark red/brown and never was pad/tampon worthy. I think I'm going to insist on the doc doing a blood test...hoping for betas. I really hope this isn't going the direction that I am thinking (chemical/miscarriage). I am so in love with my baby already...i am heartbroken just THINKING that something might be wrong.


UPDATE: Laid back down and held my pee for another 3 hours. Took another digital. Positive this time. That made me feel better, but it still doesn't explain the spotting or why the FRER is getting lighter??? Doc @ 3pm. Amber is taking off this afternoon to come with me to the appt. I love her.

Thank you!

Thanks to all who gave me congrats! I wish each and every one of you the best! I am so in love with my little embryo! Hoping to get into the doc before Friday when we leave for a weekend in Austin. To keep my sanity (and for Amz' peace of mind) I've been taking a HPT every morning with FMU. Every morning it is so great to wake up and see that positive! Besides my MISSED PERIOD (who's missing it???) I have had some headaches and indigestion. Otherwise, I'm doing fine! I hope these next 8 months FLY by!

It's a beautiful thing...

Maybe Baby still a maybe?

So...maybe not a BFN yet. I'll get back to you.

BFN

well after having spotting off and on for nearly 3 days..AF came FOUR DAYS EARLY! wtf? this sucks.

I don't know what to think...[TMI WARNING]

As previous entries have detailed, I've been pretty much symptom free for all of the TWW thus far. However, last night around 9:30 PM i started getting cramps. When I went to the bathroom at 12:30 AM i had what I am referring to as "heavy spotting." Think...first day of period where wearing a pad/tampon isn't quite required. I felt defeated and put in an instead cup. At the time the blood was pink-bright red so I thought I was starting my period. I was highly confused by this as I am only 8 DPO and my luteal phase is a solid 12-13 days. I went to bed and had horrible dreams. I woke up around 4:30 and took my temp (still high...highest temp this cycle) and went to the bathroom. Took out the instead cup and there wasn't much in it. Ever since then, I've had very light "spotting" although it seems more like brownish-red stringy mucus. The thought of implantation spotting has crossed my mind, but from what I've researched the original "heavy spotting" was too much for implantation. Although, the timing of the spotting is...spot on...for implantation. I'm nervous and confused and even more eager to get to the stage where I can test. If this is implantation, my HCG levels should be detectable by Tuesday or Wednesday. I've just got so much doubt right now, and I've been so optimistic up to this point.

7 DPO / 8 DP AI

Just checking in...

No real symptoms yet. However, today could be the start of implantation! Possibly symptoms to follow in the upcoming days? DP talks to my belly every night and tells the "Maybe Baby" that we need Mommy's temps to stay high and that we already love it. =) Temps have been looking good too!

As for "signs" if you believe in that sort of thing...

Yesterday, was the last day for my good friend at work. She's moving on to bigger and better things. However, we always order chinese when there is a special occasion. My fortune cookie said: "May you soon be graced by the presence of a loved one." You can read it any way you want, BUT all the girls that know we're trying all started "aww-ing" and "coo-ing" saying that it HAD to be baby related. LOL. So...I saved the fortune.

Testing around the 30th if AF stays away...

However, regardless of what my UPT says we'll still be getting a baby soon...we've decided to adopt one of the little kittens that DP's mom's cat had. (She adopted a stray not knowing she was already preggers.) He is a little orange and white tabby; super cute. His name will be Mateo.

Sticky thoughts for everyone (including myself, lol)!