It's a beautiful thing...

Maybe Baby still a maybe?

So...maybe not a BFN yet. I'll get back to you.

BFN

well after having spotting off and on for nearly 3 days..AF came FOUR DAYS EARLY! wtf? this sucks.

I don't know what to think...[TMI WARNING]

As previous entries have detailed, I've been pretty much symptom free for all of the TWW thus far. However, last night around 9:30 PM i started getting cramps. When I went to the bathroom at 12:30 AM i had what I am referring to as "heavy spotting." Think...first day of period where wearing a pad/tampon isn't quite required. I felt defeated and put in an instead cup. At the time the blood was pink-bright red so I thought I was starting my period. I was highly confused by this as I am only 8 DPO and my luteal phase is a solid 12-13 days. I went to bed and had horrible dreams. I woke up around 4:30 and took my temp (still high...highest temp this cycle) and went to the bathroom. Took out the instead cup and there wasn't much in it. Ever since then, I've had very light "spotting" although it seems more like brownish-red stringy mucus. The thought of implantation spotting has crossed my mind, but from what I've researched the original "heavy spotting" was too much for implantation. Although, the timing of the spotting is...spot on...for implantation. I'm nervous and confused and even more eager to get to the stage where I can test. If this is implantation, my HCG levels should be detectable by Tuesday or Wednesday. I've just got so much doubt right now, and I've been so optimistic up to this point.

7 DPO / 8 DP AI

Just checking in...

No real symptoms yet. However, today could be the start of implantation! Possibly symptoms to follow in the upcoming days? DP talks to my belly every night and tells the "Maybe Baby" that we need Mommy's temps to stay high and that we already love it. =) Temps have been looking good too!

As for "signs" if you believe in that sort of thing...

Yesterday, was the last day for my good friend at work. She's moving on to bigger and better things. However, we always order chinese when there is a special occasion. My fortune cookie said: "May you soon be graced by the presence of a loved one." You can read it any way you want, BUT all the girls that know we're trying all started "aww-ing" and "coo-ing" saying that it HAD to be baby related. LOL. So...I saved the fortune.

Testing around the 30th if AF stays away...

However, regardless of what my UPT says we'll still be getting a baby soon...we've decided to adopt one of the little kittens that DP's mom's cat had. (She adopted a stray not knowing she was already preggers.) He is a little orange and white tabby; super cute. His name will be Mateo.

Sticky thoughts for everyone (including myself, lol)!

2-3 DP AI

No symptoms or anything to speak of...yet. Trying to stay positive, without getting my hopes up too much. Would love to have some beginner's luck, but we realize that we're just starting out and we have another 5 guaranteed cycles. I've been checking out baby gear online for the last couple of days.

Fertility.Friend hasn't given me cross hairs yet, but my temps are way up (almost half a degree) so it's just a matter of time. I'm thinking I O'd very early on the 19th.

Hope everyone out in TTC world get their BFP's soon. Keep sending those sticky thoughts my way!

Maybe Baby

i'm officially in my 1st TWW!!! DP and i ended up insemming on wednesday night which was CD16. ALL the fertile signs were there...except a positive OPK. since OPKs and i dont have the best track record, we went with our gut. we de-frosted the swimteam and went to town. the next day i kept feeling like we jumped the gun. we were supposed to insem yesterday evening. at the last minute i decided i wanted to wait. today i had some pretty bad twinges on my left side for a couple of hours. so i went to the bathroom, took out a smiley OPK that i just KNEW was going to be negative, and waited. Then i saw the prettiest smile in the whole world!!! Its the first time i have ever gotten a positive on any clear.blue product. so i sent a pic to amz! as soon as i got home from work we started round 2. unfortunately, amz couldnt stick around cuz she has that family thing this weekend 3 hours away! so here i am...looking much like a turtle....for at least the next 15 minutes. we will be testing sometime between the 28th and the 30th if AF doesnt show. please send sticky thoughts my way!

495 days later...

Finally, what I wrote about in my very 1st entry on this blog...is happening.

Insem #1 looks like it'll be tonight!!! Normally O around CD19-21, but it seems like the Clomid is gonna push my O date up a few days. Insem #2 about 24 hours after the first.

*smiling from ear to ear*

Tracking Number!

Fed Ex has my swimteam in hand! Feels like Christmas!

Bad Timing

Ugh. So my favorite aunt is coming into town to visit this month. She'll be staying with my mom (thank goodness) but she'll want to hang out all weekend. The same weekend, Amz' family is throwing a big get together and she's EXPECTED to attend. What weekend is this you ask? The one smack-dab in the middle of our proposed insem dates!!! I dont want/need this stress.

We have babyjuice!

12 awesome vials of babyjuice are ours. We got our 2nd choice donor...out of a list of 8. WooHoo! I think he's a good fit for us. 2 of those lovely little vials of babymakers are going to be shipped to us on the 14th of April! I hope that date works out...I'd hate to keep the dewar longer than a week...but I wanted to try to cover as many possible days since I'm starting the clomid tomorrow. =) I'm stoked.

Squee!

Excited!!!! *does the "ordering sperm as soon as amz gets home from work because we just got accepted to NW" happy dance!*